Hard Love

We all know that life is hard, and it’s unfair. I think a lot of us get surprised when hard things come our way, there’s a belief that if we do things the ‘right’ way we will be shielded from suffering. But God never said that. Some of the hardest things to ever overcome happened to Jesus, so really why should we be an exception!

Trading punches with the heart of darkness

Going to blows with your fear incarnate

Never gone until it’s stripped away

A part of you has gotta die today

In the morning you gon’ need an answer

Ain’t nobody gonna change the standard

It’s not enough to just feel the flame

You’ve gotta burn your old self away

The song today is ‘Hard Love’ by Needtobreathe. I love the version which also features Lauren Daigle. I found that version on the soundtrack to ‘The Shack’. This song reflects our hard struggle in life. I have been doing a lot of reflecting about what our struggles in life bring about in us. They birth a new strength and resilience which we take forward with us. Suffering can also teach us compassion and gratitude if we do the work necessary to come out the other side of our darkness.

Hold on tight a little longer

What don’t kill ya, makes ya stronger

Get back up, ’cause it’s a hard love

You can’t change without a fallout

It’s gon’ hurt, but don’t you slow down

Get back up, ’cause it’s a hard love

While we can find purpose in suffering, and we can grow and change for the better, suffering is hard. It can feel like we’re holding onto the edge of the cliff with bloody fingers, waiting for our strength to fail and send us plummeting into the darkness. Suffering is exhausting and relentless. It is uncomfortable and depressing. It can be very lonely too, no one else is able to walk the path for us.

You know the situation can’t be right

And all you ever do is fight

But there’s a reason that the road is long

It takes some time to make your courage strong

I want to offer you comfort if you find yourself in the darkness. We may start to believe that we will never crawl our way out of it, life will never feel better. We might also believe that we are alone in our suffering. Our exhaustion may feel just too overwhelming. But take heart. You are not alone and you don’t need to walk through the valley of darkness and death on your own.

When the wolves come and hunt me down

I will face them all and stand my ground

‘Cause there’s a fire burnin’ in me

They will see my strength in this love I found

God has promised to be with us through it all. We are not fighting in our own strength, but with the strength of the Almighty.

“The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.”

Deuteronomy 31:8.

Yes, there are times we want to surrender to the darkness, when it all feels like too much. But know that God is giving us the tools we need and the strength we will require to overcome. He has walked the path before us and is alongside us the whole way. He is crying with us and hears our anger and rage. He is holding us and carrying us when we just can’t keep going. So ‘hold on tight a little longer, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger, get back up because it’s a hard love’.

https://music.apple.com/za/album/hard-love-feat-lauren-daigle/1198257606?i=1198258538

Watch the lyric video for ‘Hard Love’ by NEEDTOBREATHE ft Lauren Daigle

Starts and Ends

People have been asking me how I am and I’m not always sure how to answer. Life keeps rolling on and for the most part my head is above water. I’m able to get through each day, sometimes it’s easier than others. But often there are underlying emotions which threaten to push through to the surface. I can’t always name them, or even identify where they are coming from but I do know that I don’t feel at peace. I’m going back to the new Hillsong United Album today with their song ‘Starts and Ends’

My soul thirsts for things I can’t explain

In my bones a beckoning to pray

If my heart is a battleground

My defences run both ways

The flesh is a beggar and thief

But there is a Spirit-man awakening me

Peace is such a treasured state. Angst is not. It’s uncomfortable, edgy. It can be almost physically uncomfortable. I’m not sure if I want to be quiet and rest, or get up and tick off my to do list. And whichever I choose doesn’t seem to satisfy. That inner discomfort follows me around, there is no escape from it. I can numb it temporarily but it will come back.

When real life and peace won’t make amends

When all these starts

Start feeling like these ends

Like the world is unravelling

And I’m bound to come undone

There is a Shepherd a Priest

There is a Comforter who comforts me

I have begun to realize that this inner turmoil needs to be dealt with and handed over to the One who can take it. The unsettled feeling is usually trying to tell us something. Sometimes we actually know what is bothering us but we don’t want to acknowledge it. It may be something we have done which we shouldn’t have, or something we haven’t done which we should have. It might be our reaction to a situation that didn’t feel right. Or maybe it is something that has been done to you. I know that I tend to post-process (well that’s my term for it). Only after an interaction do I realize what bothered me about it. Sometimes it takes me days to figure it out.

And my soul finds rest

Where it makes no sense

There the blood sets me free

All my old regrets

All my brokenness

All my failures redeemed

And it feels like grace

Where I stacked my shame

There the cross stands for me

When we finally acknowledge our turmoil we can hand it over to God. For me it’s sometimes a simple conversation in my head with God, saying take this from me. Other times I have asked my friends to pray for me and the issue I am facing. It is incredible how the sense of peace comes so quickly afterwards. I am suddenly not carrying this burden alone, it is shared and a shared burden is so much lighter. The issue may not be resolved, but I don’t have the angst around it anymore.

Lay your burden down upon

Down upon Him

Lay your burden down

Peace is something that God wants us to have. How amazing is this promise that Jesus gave us: “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.” This comes from John 14:27.

All the things I’ve done

All the times I’ve run

All my dead ends redeemed

And it looks like hope

Where my heart was broke

And His heart broke for me

God is with us through it all, He wants to share life with us and carry our burdens for us. His heart breaks for us. And He longs to give us His peace. All we need to do it accept it.

https://music.apple.com/za/album/starts-and-ends-live/1453339561?i=1453339570

Watch the video for ‘Starts and Ends’ by Hillsong United

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